I Got Invited To An Event & This Is What Happened

Hi, y’all & Happy Monday!

As you can tell from the title of this post,  I’m here today to tell you all about an event I got invited to.
About a month ago I received an email with an invitation to an influencer event and at first glance, I thought to myself “fun!”. I hadn’t gone to any events in a while and to be 100% transparent with you, its because I stopped getting invited. I knew this and wasn’t sure why but it was starting to get to me. I, of course, started thinking I was irrelevant or maybe not a “good enough” blogger to be invited to events anymore so when receiving that email invite I was excited to be thought of again. A few weeks had gone by and it was getting close to the date of the event but I was still unsure if I wanted to go or not. After finally giving it some thought, I decided to not go. Now I know what you’re thinking, “Esmeralda, how are you going to complain about never getting invited but when you finally do, you don’t go?” Trust me, I told myself this too. The day after the event, I’m on Instagram casually looking at others stories and I come across posts from the same event I had just decided not to go to. Not only did the event look like a hit and so much fun but a ton of the girls who went were some of Houston’s favorite bloggers. I immediately was SO bummed that I missed the event but most importantly bummed because I CHOSE to not go. Now again, I know what you’re thinking, “okay and? what’s the point? you didn’t go, big whoop” lol give me a sec to explain. After seeing those posts from the event I was invited to, I quickly vented to one of my best friends telling her how bummed I was about missing the event so naturally, she asks why I didn’t go and let me just say, this is where it gets deep. I couldn’t even respond to her without being so embarrassed. Y’all. I didn’t go because I literally thought to myself “if they’re inviting me to this event, it’s probably not an event worth going to.” ………………
Can you believe that I belittled myself so much that I talked myself out of going to an event all because I thought I wasn’t “good enough” or “well known” or worthy of getting invited to an event that other “well known” bloggers would be invited to!? Sad huh? Its been a big heart check for me to know that I think so little of myself and who I am as a blogger. What’s crazy to think is that whoever made the invitation list thought I was just as worthy as the next influencer on the invitation list. It’s been a few days since that event and I’ve had a lot to think about. As hard as it was to come to the realization of how ugly and hard I am on myself, I’m glad I’m aware. Now I know no one is holding me back other than myself. I believe a lot out there have the same thoughts as me, blogger or not. Let me just tell you what I’ve been telling myself and that is to be your #1 fan. If you cant support who you are and what you’re doing, why should others? Why would others!? Believe in yourself so others can too.

Thanks to those for taking the time to read this very vulnerable post of mine  it’s not like me to be this raw and honest with others much less with anyone and everyone who has access to the internet lol but I hope this post helps if you’re in a situation similar to mine. If you take anything from this post, I hope it is that you realize what I’m just now realizing and that is to know your worth. You are worth SO much more than what you think. Be your biggest fan. Love and believe in yourself so others can too.
Xx, Es <3